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(Saturday, November 04, 2006/10:53 PM)

Experimentation
What a hell of a day.

Letsee, there was that subaru challenge thing that started today, I don't know why but my whole family was inside Ngee Ann City and we didn't even as much get a glance of that car with all the handprints. I'm not trying to downgrage or offend anyone taking part but if you're still going: good job! keep it through the night and you can be garunteed sucess if you fail due to some external factor, because your never-say-die spirit can be used for other things too, not just cars. For those who just gave up: nice try but there's other people who are more determined to get that red-handprinted car than you. It's no wonder I'm not participating, I have better things to chase after than a car, because I'm not a person who wouldn't give my all for material value. (=

Since the last time I posted some crap I've been through and the lessons we can all learn, I got many neat replies. So I'm gonna do it again heh, it's jsut what I'm good at doing, now THIS is something I'm determined to finish through, no matter how long or how tiring the journey will be.

To round off my school year of 2006:
1) I was a bit different from the rest during the start of the year, but people who hated me found that I can change to fit their needs, so in the end I made more friends than I thought I would've made in the first place.
2) Class is actually a great place, it's nicer than a home, a game, and during the school hols, you just miss your class. As they always say, absence makes the heart grow fonder.
3) I learnt that you can't win em' all. Sometimes you come in last, sometimes you come in first but the medal you get is not made out of real gold. Appearances can be deceiving, for all we know, that last guy might be driving a car made out of gold.
4) I learnt that friends will always be there for you. There's no such thing as a friendship that's razed to the ground. A broken friendship can always be fixed. Even if it's razed, there's still fire insurance.
5) In the end, even teachers will miss you. No matter how good, how bad, they'll remember you and you'll get the memories years down the road, that's when you go back to school and see them.

Now, on to the real story. =P

It's been a great year, and I've seen a whole bunch of people come and go. We started so different, yet in the end we all couldn't bear to part, well give or take a few exceptions, that's a different case, so I'll thereby draw a conclusion to this neat year.
Emotion is like plastacine, it changes shape to suit the mood. But this is only temporary, because the plastacine can mould itself back into it's original shape, which is personality.
Personality, on the other hand, is like molten metal. You shape it the best you can and then when it cools, you can't anymore, unless you throw it back into the fire, which would be quite drastic.
So we can see personality is quite permanent. In fact, none of the class' personalities changed alot, only the emotion changes to fit the class mood, which is why at home you'd behave like you normally do but when in class it all changes.
When big situations happen, it causes alot of change, but what becomes a permanent change is the personality. Sometimes you throw a weak metal back into the fire, it melts easily and can reshape. Whereas, if you throw a hardy one into the fire, it refuses to melt one bit and so you're left with the same personality, one that refuses to change.
Emotion can change very easily, and so can personality when you heat that fire till it gets very very hot. So why bother, when you can keep that fire low and let the plasticine mould back into that happy person you once knew?
After all this crap, I don't think I expected it to turn out like this, maybe something just interrupted my moment of thought, oh well, life's like that, always interrupting.